Good times and thank you!

Wow...

What a ride...

Its been so interesting, like a flash back to highschool! I can't quite explain how and or why but...its been quite fun! It makes you wonder if time could be turned back, would it have been any different? I've been doing things that have been unusually out of my character and had conversations with people that I don't normally talk too, and have made plenty of new ones too! its been so much fun, picked up a new job, may begin contract work with TT which will be awesome if i can help him out!

Its been so long since I've felt so alive!!!

I hope this is going to be the beginning of a very long and successful career path

I have someone in particular I would like to thank for this...well two people really, but of course all my friends that have supported me right up until now...you guys are so freakin awesome! And I would have to say I've been the luckiest person to be so well supported by so many people. But yes two people...its so weird how one of them is completely unexpected...came out of no where! But doesn't realise how much they have helped me :)

So thanks to all, in particular those people, but thanks :)

An avenue to vent...

I feel that some times this is a good place to come too for a bit of reflection. I'm quite glad I haven't deleted it yet just for the purpose of it has always been a great place to reflect...

Anyways...I know I posted earlier in my Blog about a girl that I was with...who would have thought that, this girl was one the one that I would be with right up until this post. It has been more than 3 years, we have had the most unbelievable journey and I have to say it will be a journey that I will NEVER forget...It's been, in the only way I can describe in words as, fkn amazing...we had our ups (mostly ups because we rarely fought! And shared plenty of beautiful moments together) and some downs but very rarely :)

But now has come a time where the cross roads begin...I have finally graduated :D but she has decided that she doesn't know what she wants between us...and I have become extremely lost because of this...some times I feel like I'm doing the right thing, but some times I feel like I have taken a step in the wrong direction. Although she has assured me that fate will do its magical thing and show us that if we were meant to be together WE WERE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER...then...why can't we just be together now? HOWEVER that being said, all the events that lead to us dating...that was definitely fate. So why is it that I find it so hard to let it go? Is it because of the length we were together? no, Is it because of companionship I just miss it? no.

So what is it? Well I can say one thing is for sure I definitely can say without hesitation that I really care for her...alot...I hope that some day, as she said our paths will cross and our fates have been decided. Even as I write this now, and although I don't need it, I feel it will serve as a very hefty reminder that I am CERTAIN that there is someone I can say for certain I will want to marry in the future. She's been fantastic and I hope that we can make many more happy memories together...even though she is so freakin stubborn...I still love her alot...please give me the strength to see this all the way to the end!

I hope to god not many people read this...